VIBRANT LIFE - MELANCHOLONOISE lyrics

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1) INTRO INTO DEPRESSION
5:00, lyrics:
I feel like I'm stuck. I feel like I'm going insane. I have no idea what to do. Everything weighs down on me so badly. The weight on my shoulders drags them down as much as it drags down my sanity. I'm depressed. I'm sitting here again, wondering when something will move forward in my life. You didn't die for this. You didn't rise from the dead for this. I'm such a sinner. I've lost what self control I once had. And it's not for lack of trying - I've tried to let my desires overtake me, resistant to every nudge you gave me in the right direction. Why? Is sin so innate in me that I fail to fully grasp the implications of redemption? I should think not, since the truth has been made so clear to me, and mankind has no excuse. So why have I worked so hard to get to this point? Am I so resistant to letting go of my desires when I know they lead only to pain and destruction? And I drown. I drown into the thick, melancholic mud of this world, dragging me down in my depressed indifference. The jewels of the world don't shine so brightly when you inspect them closer. From a distance things seem so bright, and sin dims them all. Sin dims them all. Don't let it dim me. The harsh light I shined before was better than what I shine now. All of this knowledge, and for what? What is it worth in a heart and mind so corrupt that a whisper from the devil is enough to mislead me again? I pray Lord triune God, I beg for guidance. I pray, I beg for help. Remove this sin. Cut it out of me. Bring me back to where I was - the words I never thought I'd utter. Realizing truth only to backslide into outwardly comfortable lies. I pray with all the sincerity I had when I prayed in 2009 to lead me away from violence. I pray with all the sincerity I had when I prayed in 2012 to be with me and guide me out of atheism. I pray with all the sincerity I had when I prayed in 2014 to guide me away from my occult beliefs and to protect me from hostile spirits. Am I any better now than I was back then? Hardly. Guide me, God, to where you want me to be. It's been so long. I never want to go back again. My life is going in the exact wrong direction. Turn it around, and help me to accept it. Turn it around, and help me to accept it. Help me give my cares and burdens to you again. Take this seemingly endless burden off my shoulders. Amen.

2) FIX ME
6:37, lyrics:
I remember when it started, it felt like a new day
Every day that goes by now, I feel like I'm in more pain
All the sanity I once had now is leaving my mind
Going from hating the past to longing for what's left be-

I remember when it started, it felt like a new day
Every day that goes by now, I feel like I'm in more pain
All the sanity I once had now is leaving my mind
Going from hating the past to longing for what's left behind

I remember when it started, it felt like a new day
Every day that goes by now, I feel like I'm in more pain
All the sanity I once had now is leaving my mind
Going from hating the past to longing for what's left be-

I remember when it started, it felt like a new day
Every day that goes by now, I feel like I'm in more pain
All the sanity I once had now is leaving my mind
Going from hating the past to longing for what's left behi- i- i- iiiiiind

All the sin that's deep inside, I grow weaker every day
Trying to stand up when all I do is fall and break my legs
All the lust and the wrath in perpetual gluttony
Growing higher to the point I can no longer even see
All the consequences of the things that I know I haven't done
Or the things that I have, they're wrong, every single one
All the peace that I felt is replaced by impatience
Brought on by all the stress that I put upon myself
I have zero restraint, and everything I do shows it
How can I call myself a temple for Your Spirit?
I'm a hypocrite and liar, I no longer want to be
I want to finally fulfill the plans that You made for me
But I know I can't do it, so again to You I pray
Give me a new heart to resist the sin I desire and yet hate
I sit here again confused and broken into pieces, and yet see
That from the shards of my life, You can still make something out of me

3) THE SONG YOU NEVER WANTED ME TO RECORD
7:46, lyrics:
Trapped in a mire of life
Everyone leaves, including You
Pouring the blackness in my soul
I died and You left me there
And it's not for want of trying
I ask for guidance and I still choke
You promise yet I cry alone
Am I in Your kingdom or not?
I feel like I'm failing, I am

I was born in 2014. You rescued me with arms of light and strength. Clothed in Your armor, I found a strength I never knew I had. I rode into battle at once for Your name and glory, and fired off every form of ammunition I had. In 2015, I felt the darkness and asked for Your help. I sank into depression. 2016, I felt utterly lost and asked for answers. You only intervened when I became sick and suicidal. In 2017 I finally found the answers for which I asked in 2016. In 2018 I was ready to stand back up only to be knocked down by grief and loss. And now today, the 11th of March 2019, You do the same again. I believe in You, Your Son, and the Advocate. I can do nothing else, I have seen the truth with my own eyes. But more and more, I feel You don't love me, like this was all a joke. As if it were Your will all along to bring me back down, yet You promise this is not the case. I plead, and don't know what to do. My prayers go unanswered. If you want me, why do you only push me away? I want You. If You want me to spread the Gospel, why do You stop me so many times when I get the chance? Why, Lord?

I don't know what else to say, what else to do
Deep down You know I want to serve You
My feet are slipping into the grave
And You are the only one left who can save
You know I am willing, to sacrifice all
Yet doing the opposite always breaks my fall
You know that I seek You; let me hear Your voice
You know I'm cynical, but don't want that choice
To leave this all behind, to fall in the dark
Where is the light of that first shining spark?
Will sickness and grieving consume all of me?
Or will I step in Your kingdom in love and mercy?

JESUS WEPT

4) COLLAPSE BY THIS SHORE (Interlude)
4:18, instrumental

5) GRAY AUTUMN SKY
8:18, lyrics:
In solitude, I seek You
In the green and red and orange
When the sky is gray with clouds
I walk here seeking You,
Renew my spirit
That has been so long plagued

6) ESCAPE - MY ONLY PASSION
3:35, lyrics:
My world is bitter, stagnant
My inner yearning grows
Escape - my only passion
Tiredness - all I know

See roads left untraveled
See cities, sun, and rain
Dream of somewhere far away
Dream and hope and pray

7) GOD CUTS THROUGH THE FOG
2:29, lyrics:
I'm 23 but feel more like a thousand
Whatever joy I have, depression surrounds it
Every day, watch it fade, everything that I love
Displays the way the earth pervades different from that of above
Living down here, living in fear, living through every year
Giving my words, watch them unheard, in and out of their ears
I have no tribe, I have no clan, I am a stranger in the land
Everything here is foreign to me, guided now only by God's hand
"Aw crap, what's that, you know I don't want that
I don't want to hear about that God stuff again, take it all back"
Too bad, so sad, I don't care anymore
I'm going to speak even if you get bored
I'm going to shriek even if you ignore
I'm going to preach even if you abhor
I'm going to seek a land where we are worth more
More than we can be down here, down here
Full of fallacies to tickle your ears
Logic is nothing compared to a smile
"Let me tell you what you want, stay awhile"
I'm tired now, I don't want to hear that anymore
I want to hear truth, I'm knocking so open the door
I'm praying so pick me back up off the floor
I'm staying, I'm willing, to change to the core
I've lived in the old ways and seen where they lead
I need to flee, I plea to see, the light shining like an ore
If depression is a river, then pick up the oars
If sin is a stumbling block, then stand up and roar
Be more than you ever could be before
Open your eyes, seek the prize,
Eternal life, fight through the strife
Glory in the teachings and grace of the Lord

8) OUTRO
2:06, lyrics:
Yo you know, we been here from the start yeah
Now it's time to go to the heart yeah
Dreams fall apart when you don't feel the part
When the martyrs in charge are the harmers of art yeah,
Run out free, go with me to the sea, then you'll see what I mean
When I be totally isolated from our mandated humanity,
What I say it just may be the way we should stay or it may go away
I don't know I just go with the glow like it go in the evening when it sinks
When you're done see the sun final show of the day
As the plants drink in the sunlight, photosynthesis,
Don't you see whom to fight, it's our nemesis,
It's the demons who are being contradictory in our nature and our life,
What we're feeling when we're sealing our beings in a contract out of strife,
Money can't buy happiness but it sure can buy distraction,
In the end it's all that matters when our God calls us to action,
They still out here saying we can't sin,
When it is precisely what they are doing,
Call us sheep you can keep up your sleep
You're not wolves, you are sheep or you're goats
Who are doing the most doing work against us
We're the pack you can't be and we're back can't you see
We can't hide we are seen with our knees in the green
With our hands to the sky with our faith we can't die with the gospel on the scene,
We was lost in the woods now the cost to do good
Is what we never could, that's the reason we should
Look to Christ, He's the leader of the pack
Superceder in the black
The defeater got our back
The computer's been hacked
Now the lights going out, see the stars, see the clouds,
Now so far, you're in doubt
All you are is your clout
Now the hour to shout
With the power about the Messiah going out to the demons all about.
Were alone but now you are not
Take the hand of the Maker of land
Maker of stars and sun
Maker of everyone
Want a spirit guide? You got one one
Who has died and has risen, His name is Jesus
He always sees us
He guides and teaches
Loves us and preaches,
Put aside your idols, let them die,
The true messiah is beyond the sky
Mankind will fail you one day, so will I
But I'm just a servant, I'm not the main guy,
So if you're a loner like me you're a nomad
Made of disgrace is the world that is so bad
Nowhere left in this world that is so sad
Take His hand
He is your heavenly dad, a parent that the world could never be,
A friend to the end that you cannot see,
But you feel and you hear and you know you're not alone,
Jesus Christ finally gave folks like us a home.

 

 

 

Lyrics (C) Nocturnal Iridescence and Vibrant Life.
I am Nocturnal Iridescence, so of course these are published with permission.

SATAN DESTROYER - OV DAMNATION lyrics

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1) THE LAST CHAPTER
5:06, lyrics:
Fire rains down
A fainted moon and a blood red sky
Darkness surrounding
As bodies lie in the pit of Hell
The burning of chaff
Swept away by the tides and currents
Only to submerge
Twilight around the chasm
A beam ray of light
twisting through the sequine needle
As God throws the prophets
To the devils' dyke brazen with brimstone
Only to profundis
Against the whipping of tails
Covered up with dirt
The gravens of condemnation

2) GORGOROTH
7:50, lyrics:
Behead O' that monster
That Gorgoroth
That hydra of whisping tongue
O' behead that monster Gorgon
Thou needest slayn indeed
Wretched are the water that floweth forth
So let thy needle cast thy canopy
In light of ill-atrophy
Let damnation be damned to hell
For it's a pit with burning coals
Let his furnace light a pathway
And let no blood be laid to rest
Beheadest thine Gorgon
And let no man be in contempt a fool
Behead O' that monster
That Gorgoroth
That hydra of whisphing tongue
O behead that monster Gorgon
Thou needest slayn indeed

3) OV DAMNATION
3:52, lyrics:
Ov damnation
And a darkness of light
Inside a cathedral of ashen salt
Amongst the headstones
There is only but one aperture
One holy steple
Driven to the ashen heap
In this survival
We find nothing frail
To find nothing
Only an reminiscent
Ov damnation and a bitter end
Ove damnation
World crumbled to soil

4) EVANGELIST (Interlude)
3:19, instrumental

5) II
3:59, lyrics:
Reign of fire
Reign down with fury
A billion aeon
The serpent's reign
Cast down your holy fury
Condemn all who shall perish
Condemn them the fiery sun
Releases the beasts from the deep
To destroy the blockades
And announce the arrival of Jesus' empire
And turn pillar to salt
So we the chosen ones
outlast the pinnacle and the tower
Especially on that day of judgement
Especially on that day

Up from the ground
A legion of demons spread out
To devour the nations
And send them to the fires of Hell
The destruction of masses
The destruction of the holy temple
End the destruction of billions
As Jesus rises from the clouds

6) THE ADVENT OF PENTACOSTE
3:30, lyrics:
Advent of a new day
A spirit born
Rising from the ashes
Of disciples' hands
A rising oblivion
In subtlety

Advent of a new dawn
Where firth and grain meet
Against the crosses of Golgotha
Where Satan is demolished
To the outer realm
And the hunger of the abyss reaches girth

There's glory in the noonday
As vipers are laid to rest
A spirit beneath them
Driving them towards darkness
And as darkness perishes
Darkness descends

7) SET UPON A MOUNTED PILLAR
4:04, lyrics:
Crowds clamor
Around the steple
A great multitude approaches
For the crown of judgement is here

Millions beg upon the headdress
As the pages of the books are opened
And the seal of the almighty is brought to tribunal
Till then, no one shall rest

Set upon an mounted pillar
There was only damnation
Justice must be served
For there are the righteous and the poor

8) LAST RITES
3:41, lyrics:
Rites of a sacred kind
A kind which worship an almighty Creator
They bask inside there sewn
To reap what is begotten
Reaping what is sewn
Sewn to the earth and sky
A sky which has fallen to dusk
A sun darkened to ashes
A moon riveted in blood
Blot out the Sun
Cross out my eyes
For they are blind to reason
There's a reason for being
There's a reason for life and death
So destroy your trinket idols
And graven thy soul before the dusk
These are the last rites
Rites of a sacred temple



Lyrics (C) Lord Enochiam and Satan Destroyer.
Published officially with permission.

About Us / TOS

1) lol who are you loser¿

Nocturnal Iridescence. From Unblack Archives and from several projects like Bozkath, Darkness Cleansed, Coldrealm, etc. I'm currently the only person involved in this label, though of course most of the credit goes to God - a living being, but one I would never call a mere "person".

2) What do artists get out of signing to you?

I put your music on the APP Bandcamp page, and release it on CD-R, unless you say otherwise. (For example, I'll soon be releasing some music for free download, without CD-R versions, as per an artist's request.) All profits made from your releases will be split 50/50 after Kunaki and Bandcamp take out their fees. So let's say that "APP" makes $5 USD from an album sale. Let's assume the Bandcamp fee would be $0.50 just for example. That would leave $4.50. You would get $2.25 and APP would get $2.25. YOU NEED PAYPAL FOR THIS. I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER WAY OF PAYING YOU. When submitting artwork, please keep in mind that Kunaki only has single-panel inserts, NO BOOKLETS, and has specific sizes and dimensions required for album artwork. You can look at those [here]. If you can't design artwork or a band logo, I can theoretically design it for you, but that means your music will take longer to get released. I won't ask you to pay for it, but you will be required to wait, and considering "life stuff", that might take an additional month. Possibly even longer than that. There's no real time limit. So then, I very strongly encourage you to make your own artwork. Also, I offer free remastering services for your audio. Again, I very strongly encourage you to do this yourself, but in a pinch, I can help a little bit. Also, you obviously agree to give APP the rights to use music you send over, but these "rights" will only be enforced for the purposes of releasing your music, and keeping it safe from copyright infringement. You also retain rights, so if you decide to remove the music someday, just send another email, and I'll remove it for you. Or if you want to release your music on another label too, you can do that. I'm not picky. Technically, APP reserves the right to decline any music submissions for any reason, and also the right to delete music and drop artists for any reason, but this is just to protect myself, basically. I started this label to specifically help support the unblack scene because I care about it and want it to grow -- you'd have to do something EXTREMELY WEIRD for me to drop you from the label.

3) How do I get signed to your label?

My email is imperialkodnarok(AT)gmail(DOT)com. Send me the files and just tell me somehow that you're sending me the music *for the purpose of having it released on Annihilated Pentagram*, AND you agree to the terms described in question #2 above. Also, in your email, include the "password" listed elsewhere on this page, so I know you read everything. I will ignore emails that don't have the password. Note that APP is a Christian label so I'm only taking Christian releases. So then, occultists, "I tolerate Christians", "I'm a XYZ but my beliefs are influenced by Christianity" etc need not apply. And APP is focused on extreme/underground music so, unblack metal, death/black, dark ambient, noise, things like that. I'm a sarcastic, jaded, bitter person, believe me, you don't want to release your adult contemporary pop soft rock albums through Annihilated Pentagram Productions. MAKE SURE YOU HAVE THE LEGAL RIGHTS TO USE EVERYTHING IN YOUR FILES (ARTWORK, TEXTS, AUDIO SAMPLES, ETC) BEFORE SENDING YOUR FILES TO ME. DON'T TAKE CASTLE PICTURES FROM GOOGLE IMAGES AND SLAP YOUR LOGO ON TOP OF THEM. Just because APP is a very laid-back record label, doesn't mean I want to engage in piracy and art theft. YOU (THE PERSON/BAND SIGNING TO APP) ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR WORK. If you lie to me, you will be immediately dropped from the label and all your releases will be deleted. On the other hand, if you are a copyright holder, and discover that your art somehow slipped through the cracks and a band used your work without permission, please send an email to imperialkodnarok(AT)gmail(DOT)com and the problem will be resolved very quickly. I'm an artist, too. I don't tolerate art theft.

4) Can you tell me about your amazing record label? I can't wait to read all about its history and stuff!!!

Annihilated Pentagram Productions (APP) is an unblack metal label, and the spiritual successor (metaphorically and literally) to a mostly secular label I ran from like 2012-2013 called Draconian Star Productions. I only released 2 things through it, an EP from when Coldrealm was still a secular project (I only ever sold like 2 or 3 copies and all of them have since been bought/given back and destroyed) and a Christian single (more "sound bits" than "music") from my old project "Of This Night" called "The Storm". Maybe I'll release that single again someday. Anyway, although DSP ended around 2013 (possibly 2014?) I brought permanent closure to that label in 2020 when I released an EP on Kunaki's website (specifically Bozkath - Catacomb EP) using DSP as the label.

Annihilated Pentagram was conceived in 2015 but I decided I didn't feel like doing label stuff at that time. By the way, the pa s sw ord I mentioned in the question above, is nocturnalisacoolguylol. I had the idea to start one again in 2020 and picked up where I left off, which was... basically step one, lol, but anyway. No one else had taken the name so I just used it again. Originally the logo was going to look something more like this, but I decided I wanted something more "square" than "rectangular". I dunno, I kinda like the idea though, maybe I'll refine it and use it for something someday anyway.

The current logo, of course, being:

 

5) What's the meaning behind your label's logo?

The old logo was just a generic idea I had. A simple label "stamp" with a broken pentagram symbol representing the defeat of evil. The current logo has a much deeper story to it.

For my entire life, I've been interested in "spirituality". Some of the first books I read as a young child, of my own accord, were books about ghosts, "sixth senses", etc. I was raised by a... mostly Christian family, but while that had influenced some of my beliefs, I was far from an actual Christian. When I was around 12 years old, I first noticed a part of my right hand print that involved an inverted pentagram / Sigil of Lucifer. Note, I did not add this to my hand. It just appeared there naturally. At the time, I laughed it off. Either it was a silly coincidence, or possibly a sign of dark forces at work in my life, but I didn't think it was too important. As I got older though, and especially as my spirituality grew even darker and more focused on esotericism and occultism, I started to think more about the implications of this overtly evil symbol appearing in my skin. While my faith at that point was quite far from actual Christianity, and arguably even further from Scripture than the faith of most actual Satanists, I was never "a Satanist". I was against "that evil guy" (even though at the end of the day, I was unknowingly serving him through my actions anyway...) so this concerned me a fair bit. I've written other places about God giving a vision to me about Heaven, and my decision to listen to God and seek His wisdom. It took a couple years for me to fully make this transition and for this to turn into an actual "Christian faith", but in 2014, when I was just about 20, it happened, and I fully dropped all remnants of my old beliefs. A few months after this happened, I remembered the sigil on my hand, and noticed that a line had been added, clear through the middle of the sigil. Thus, the line didn't complete the pentagram, but rather, crossed it out. While spiritual and religious skeptics will never be convinced, no matter how much evidence they're presented, it's obvious what happened here. The sigil was added to my hand by the evil forces I was welcoming into my life, and it was crossed out and negated by God when I turned to Him. This symbol is what's in the APP logo. It represents both my own personal experiences, and also the aim of APP to be a voice for the Gospel to secular occultists, pagans/witches, esotericists, and others who are lost in the woods of spirituality like I once was...